of happy endings~

as with life...when one door closes...it allows for another to open

for six and a half months...i have been reminding my mom that there

WILL

come a day when dad wakes and says

I WANT TO GO HOME

yesterday that day arrived

i am not writing to say that his journey with cancer is complete...it is a far cry from being over...he still will have years ahead of him of being watched and rechecked...but...yesterday marked a surreal turning point

he has come full circle

he has endured an excruciating treatment along side the many of unpredictable challenges that arose throughout the months that were...and as of late... his time has been spent healing...and healing he is doing in the most remarkable of ways

a bittersweet day this will be

though we all are yearning deep within

to go back to our normal ways of living

there has been a silence of comfort that has lingered

all of us together...depending upon...relying upon...a needing of sorts

it has not been because of  

ONE but of ALL

including each of you

together we carried each other along

i am filled with the deepest of gratitude

one that has overwhelmingly filled me with tears

 tears in knowing

my father is here

he fought one of the hardest battles a man can fight

one in which some do not walk away

but for him

he is walking this day

and i know will be for a long time to come

Mathew E. Fryer Once Said:

"With every road block a detour is built. With every ending a new beginning is defined. Embracing a challenge makes life interesting but overcoming it makes life meaningful."

9...3~

it has been few and far between that i have walked away from a week feeling completely at ease

JUBILANT

feeling or expressing great happiness and triumph

9...3

walking away from many moments feeling jubilant

one father marks a turning point in recovering

our lives slowly beginning to return to their rhythms of once was

a mailbox being filled with letters from afar

silent pick me ups laced with love

time with pen in hand

art through that of different eyes 

rain subsides

simmering in the goodness of life

Rumi Once Said:

"Let  yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray."

deserving~

DESERVING

...worthy of...

is it in this idea that we deserve everything be it in good or bad that comes our way...in holding onto the thoughts that we are destined for the wonderfully good or doomed for the terribly bad

or is it in holding tight to the belief that what comes before us is presented before us for reasons far greater than we will ever know...is it in realizing or possibly discovering our inner strength which might not have been uncovered if our challenges were not endured...is it in rejoicing in the good and rejoicing in the bad...it is in learning that we can prevail through what ever life brings our way...is it in helping us realize we are worthy of achieving goodness if only we attempted to welcome and persevere through each triumph or struggle brought forth each day..is it in recognizing we deserve nothing but we are worthy of everything 

blossom...

some say

the seeds we sow need to be tended for

carefully watched over...nurtured & loved

so therefor we do...

and yet sometimes

i think we forget about ourselves

not remembering that we too need that same careful affection that we give elsewhere

Goethe once said:​

"Things that matter most must never be at the mercy of things that matter least."​

taking flight...

 because 

she was ready to fly

the destination

was not what mattered

the spreading of wings

the freedom

at hand

the choice to choose

to know she could

not for much reason

or journey planned

to fly

because she knew

if she didn't

she never would

Richard Bach once said:

"Don't believe what your eyes are telling you. All they show is limitation. Look with your understanding, find out what you already know, and you'll see the way to fly."