a soft dewy glow~

busily going about our ways

quite often these days

i am losing track of time

on the eve of her night

for what ever reason

i turned towards the dark

as if her energy was calling me near

i stepped out

to be  graced with a fleeting minute or two of silence

before the clouds blanketed her 

a soft dewy glow she was

lingering in the deep black sky

februarys snow moon

should be noted as a rain moon for us 

there has been no sightings of snow

just showers through the night

heavy cloud covers kept me from her 

when she rose to her fullest

thankful.though.for.the.moment.i.had

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow Once Said:

"nothing that is can pause or stay...the moon will wax...the moon will wane...the mist and clouds will turn to rain...the rain to mist and clouds again...tomorrow be today."

inspiring thought...

change...

januarys card speaks of

change..a journey ending...a closing....completion...a homeward stretch...a finishing of sorts

...of new beginnings...of chance...of confidence...

its as if the universe is encouraging me...chanting to me...giving me the little extra nudges that need be...it is in accepting and knowing that change will not come if i am not the one creating the change...steering the wheel...driving the force...it is in this where i find myself lost

the cards they speak...they foretell

but it is up to me to LIGHT my way

 {fingers crossed}

Lao Tzu once said:

"If you do not change direction...You may end up where your heading"

she hid in the night...

for most of the darkening hours that were

she hid silently behind a clouded night sky

 when she finally appeared 

her unto herself

an old moon in a bright new year

she was masked by the trees

with just a hint of golden light 

faint as her casting

it was enough to catch my eye

and silence me so

light...

i have had quite a few conversations

which lead back to

"do...ing"

stop thinking...just do

i have been told this many of times before

i over think...over analyze...and then execute non

i get lost in my mind more often then not

last year i enjoyed the idea of not picking a word

but allowing my word to come to me in a different manner

and so i drifted towards the oracle cards once more

to chose my one little word for 2015

so many enticing energizing meanings wrapped within this word

LIGHT

may it be my beacon...my guide...my blaze for 2015

 

 

12 + 3...

a ritual

tis how i welcome a new calendar year

cards laid before me

waiting to expose what may be on the rise

the chances and changes to be coming my way

my intention is always that of 12

but the openness is there for others to present themselves

3 more cards came to be

these i am holding as my life cards to reflect upon for the year

a starting middle and ending

2015

is full of

  growth of change of exploration of prosperity of happiness

of roots of motherhood and of finding my way

it is a first in many years that the days are to unfold in abundantly blessed ways

the last few years have spoken of hardship trials tribulations and proved very much so

to the unknown and where it will lead

 

Julien Smith said:

"Going to the unknown is how you expand what is known"

awaken...

the final hours are here

another year is coming to a close

since i woke this morning...the minutes have been rapidly diminishing coinciding with the same fleeting emotions i carried throughout 2014

it has felt like one of the longest yet quickest of years thus far

today...i paused...many times actually...reflecting upon the days that were and curiously wondering what the days of new will become

i have thought a great deal about my little word 

{i had to go back to last January as i could not quite remember how i stumbled upon my word for the year} and as i read...my post...my word unexpectedly chosen

AWAKEN

took on a whole new meaning than what i originally thought or per say planned it to mean

i was anxious on many accounts to get back to how we once were...to continue with a certain momentum that i had always attained...i wanted to dive head first...submerging and pushing myself in and with new endeavors...

i had grand plans

non.of.which.came.to.be

AWAKEN

came to me in a realization that things will never be as they were...life changes...people change...through the hard ships of  living...the rigorous rowing and treading through stormy waters...through the sweet sailing days...growth is occurring...we are constantly evolving even if we can not see it on the forefront

AWAKEN

came to me is recognizing that what once was and what is now...was and is apart of  my story...there has yet to be discovered a way to turn back the clocks of time...so instead of recreating and striving for the past...i could and can only move forward creating my now

AWAKEN

came to me when looking back...in simple subtle ways...nurturing ways...calming ways

AWAKEN

was not just about me but those that are in my life...the need to be present...nothing more...nothing less...just wholeheartedly present in their day to day

AWAKEN

was about realizing the need for myself to be...to simmering in my thoughts...to withdraw into my own silence...for acknowledging the truth behind what had all been

AWAKEN

it may not have been a boisterous year

but it was a year

a year in which

AWAKEN

slowly crept in and became a touchstone in my spirit and soul 

Buddha once said:

"there is only one time when it is essential to awaken...the time is now"

 

may 2015

be a blessed one

for each of you

 

13+1~

 

every year is a little different from the last

a practice for years i have come to know

i chose to draw up a year of cards 

it is always with the intention of at least 12 to come forth

yet strangely enough there is always a different way of sums 

there are ones that gently fall from my hands

and then there are ones that feel as if they leap from the pile

saying its me...its me

this practice is simple

mindful for me

a reflection as the months make way

offering hindsight as the days within unfold

a glimpse of a possible future

knowing all the same

that life can change in a simple blink of an eye

a tool

that leaves me hopeful yet warned

an offering 

a way to glance to and from

with a deeper understanding for the things that arise

it is in doing

appreciating each as they lay

it is in knowing you can not meld them as you wish

and in believing that as with life and living all things change

they are a sense balance amongst the unknown

Joseph Campbell Once Said:

"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us."

2014...